Happiness

I have been so happy this month. You know, that deep-inside-contentment. So much so that I even had a friend comment about it.

Hmm. Let's see, my house is one the market... good times. It's always fun to keep the house spotless and plan outtings for my kids when we have showings. My husband is gone almost always, working on his PhD. We are selling our house and actually don't even know where we will go after it is sold, and while Rob is working part-time at a company, they have postponed his full-time start date twice. So, although we are pretty sure that he has a job, you really can't be sure nowadays. And there have been several fires to put out as Primary President. Sounds like I should be stressed out, huh.

I am amazed that I am not. Not at all. I just feel so much peace. My happiness has even pushed me to start exercising regularly again. That makes me even happier.

Why? Maybe it is because my house is clean. Or possibly the exercise. Mmm-no. Really, it followed a wonderful vacation that pushed me to become closer to God. Since then, I have been reading scriptures every day and praying more. This goodness has pushed me, forced me really, to try and be even better so I keep feeling this way. I have been making better decisions about what I watch on tv. And in my downtime... you know those mindless moments as you drive or wash dishes, I have even spent that time pondering or praying.

Gosh, I know this sounds so preachy and please don't take this as self-righteous. I am still as impatient as ever, and my neighbors can probably attest that I still yell. There are times I wonder how long I can keep it up. I have been wanting to write about this for weeks, write about my change of heart, but I have been afraid to sound holier-than-thou.

Yet I can't deny that I have been feeling so much peace, especially at a time when I could be feeling the opposite, and this is why. So take it or leave it, that's fine. I just hope you feel the happiness, too.