What do I do?

I've been experiencing some disatisfaction with my life lately, which had me puzzled. I mean, really, I have a FANTASTIC life. I have an attached garage (still giving prayers of thanks for that!), I have healthy children... especially a healthy baby (yeah! To think, my last baby already had surgery by this age!), and a husband who never complains if the house is not clean when he gets home (actually, I'm usually the one complaining). So what is my deal?

It hit me today. I have lost self discipline.

It all begins after the kids go to bed and I have finished cleaning my kitchen... that downward spiral. Too tired to do something productive, like maybe get on the elyptical we own. Yet, I can't go to bed because my baby should eat in an hour and a half. So what do I do? I glut in front of the tv. And because I'm nursing, I'm hungry... so here comes the chips and salsa. Then, I will stay up after my baby goes to bed just to finish that show or write this blog. And because my baby will invariably wake me up in the middle of the night, tomorrow morning I will lay in bed until I absolutely have to get up (which is still pretty early), and be tired much of the day and exhausted by night.

I need to get up early. Start my day right before the kids awake. Exercising would be nice. Or reading. I have become addicted to sleep and have lost the discipline to get out of bed before I absolutely have to.

So what do I do? Really, what do I do?

Well, I guess this means I better put away the chips and head for bed.