Just a couple musings

So I just did analytics.google.com (or something like that), and I found at that some people actually do read my blog. Hmm... now I need to say something worthwhile. Almost anything worthwhile to say, I end up saying to everyone I know (I'm that quiet, reserved type), so by the time I get to sit down at night and type, I'm done. Dang it. I write really great, witty, and super enlightening blogs in my head, though. Really.

A couple thoughts. I drove down to visit my grandmother last week. Both nights I was there, we spent the evening after kids were in bed just sitting and talking. As she told story after story, it was like I saw my grandmother become a girl, teenager, and young mother. Like I was getting to see her real soul... not just the grandmother role. I wonder if 50 years from now, I will get a chance to share my soul with my own grand-daughter... let her see that even though there are 50 years difference in age, we are so very the same.

My son is going to have surgery again. This will be his second surgery, and he just turned 3. He is having his adenoids and tonsils out because of sleep apnea... which sounds like a common enough procedure, but there is like a 2 week recovery from it. So here is one of my concerns: am I somehow to blame? I have hyperemesis when pregnant and end up taking a lot of meds and getting IVs for 9 months. And although all of those medications are approved for pregnancy, it makes me wonder. None of the cousins, and only 1 of all of the second cousins has had any health problems. Yet both of my kids had funky problems as babies. Not horribly funky, like aplastic heart or microcephaly, but funky enough to require hospitalization. Before you jump in defending, realize that no, I am not trying to point fingers or give myself a guilt trip. It is what it is.
As Rob and I are starting to think about having another baby, I am just thinking, wondering if there is something I can do better for this next one. Probably not... pregnancy for me has been about survival... but if there is something. Hmm.

Although, for the record, I'll take what the Lord gives me with a smile. HE has been so good to me.